Somebody Someday, and the Curse of Ambitons...

I was told the other day that the only reason why I wanted something to work out was because I can't stand the thought of looking like I had failed, not because of the actual failing.
My first thought was shock, then it traveled through hurt and ended up somewhere in anger with no directions on how to get out. I have to admit, I have a horrible temper, I have lots of faults ( don't we all?) Even though this comment really hurt, the anger subsided and has caused me to look deeper into my own swiss cheese of a head. Somebody Someday.

So my journey begins, travel with me if you dare...

I go deep into my mind...

....deeper.....through the cerebrum.... past the thalamus.......
Hello Mr. Hypothalamus (He controls my hormones and triggers me to wake up) He seems to be sleeping with a "tent pitched." Hmm.. that explains why I have a hard time waking up and I am always horny....it appears that Mr. Hypothalamus is a lazy and perverted bastard....
traveling deeper...

Ugg Me want cheese, me like cheese, me love cheese... whoops back up a little... my primitive brain seems to like cheese....

and we arrive..

I am sure that my brain is just like anyone else's... maybe a few less cells, but oh was the time worth the loss of those guys. I spend a moment replaying taps in my mind and bowing my head. For those glorious cells gave the ultimate sacrifice so that others could have such wonderful memories....

Fair Winds and Following Seas my matey's..



Well, about me. I am just like anyone one else I want to be loved, wanted, blah blah blah.... yep all standard stuff here... but wait whats that? It's really bright, just hard to see under all of this crap..... ah.. it's my ambition.... as I uncover it, it's larger than it appears.... ah yes, I remember what its doing tucked away in this far corner ...
I remember a time when my own ambition was a curse. I never was quite happy with where I was at, I used this unhappiness to drive me to be a better person.... to be somebody someday..
Unfortunately this unhealthy drive ended up hurting the ones I loved, and I am truly saddened by this. For the chase for the cheese brought only despair to those around me.

So I buried it...

Since then I have been happy with where I am at, a little too happy. So i uncover some of it, not all of it. a little green man with big pointy ears once told me"the curse of your ambitions, strong it is, strength flows from the curse. Hmmm... But beware of the dark side." Somebody Someday.
Now to the real reason we took this journey, to find out what drives me
a) the thought of looking like I had failed
b) the actual failing itself.
I look around.. I see lots of emotions, all strewn about. Hastily discarded and half buried. Buried only good enough to take the sting away, some happy ones buried too. Will have to come back and look into that later.

Strange there was some truth in the persons accusations.

I would have to say I do hate the failing part, But I also hate failing in someone else's eyes. But I do not hate it for making me look bad. I really don't give a *@%# what people think. It is the failing the people I love. I want to succeed, not for me, but for them, My Wife, My Kids, My Family...I guess a little part of me doesn't want to let me down either. Somebody Someday.

As I leave the inner works of my mind, I brush past a memory. It's of a song, it's tied with so many emotions both recent and so long ago..

When I was just sixteen I stood waiting for a dream
A barker street bus station non affair
At the time it seemed so sad, but it did not turn out bad
If you hadn't messed me up I'd still be there
And I think most folks agree, a little put-down makes them see
They aint no chain - just a link and that's why you made me think
Gonna be somebody - be somebody - be somebody - someday

Irene Wilde- Ian Hunter

I feel the emotion pass through me like the first crisp fall night breeze, no longer of harsh cold of hurt and pain but of a sweetness that makes me who I am.
I am Somebody..

For Bee.. and all those who don't think they have time for the Cheese..

If you are like me then there are three things that we never seem to get enough of:

Time,
Money,
Good Food.

I work 40 plus hours a week, go to school full time, and coach two youth soccer teams, so time is something that I never have enough of. Money seems to evade me on a regular basis . Good food is another thing that I never seem have enough of (trust me, my laptop is becoming a shelf for my belly). I managed to find a tasty recipe that takes care of all of these concerns.
And of course it has...

CHEESE..

Cheesy Chicken Quesadillas
From: Campbell's Kitchen Prep/Cook Time: 20 minutes

Ingredients:
1 lb. skinless, boneless chicken breasts, cut into cubes
1 can (10 3/4 oz.) Campbell's® Condensed Southwest Style Pepper Jack Soup
1/4 cup water
8 flour tortillas (8"), warmed
Pace® Chunky Salsa

Directions:
PREHEAT oven to 425ºF.
COOK chicken in nonstick skillet until done and juices evaporate, stirring often. Add soup and water and heat through. About 1/3 cup chicken mixture on half of each tortilla to within 1/2" of edge. Moisten edge with water. Fold over and seal. Place on 2 baking sheets.
BAKE 5 min. or until hot. Cut into wedges and serve with salsa.
Makes 8 quesadillas

The best thing is only 20 minutes to cheesy heavenly delight. Try it you will love it. It's great just to have the ingredients on hand in case of those late night munchies or when you need a dinner between the cheese that keeps us running on the wheel of life.
Be creative, I love to add extra toppings, like diced tomatoes or a little cilantro from the garden. With football season coming Shred the chicken and replace the tortilla's with nacho chips...Now that I have made myself hungry, I have to spend a little time in the kitchen.

Do you have a quick and cheap recipe you'd like to share?
If you try it, let me know how you like it or what toppings you added!

In the Begining There Was...... Cheese

Before time began, there was... the cheese. We know not where it comes from, only that it holds the power to create worlds and fill them......with life.
That is how our race was born. For a time we had lived in harmony, but like all great power, some wanted it for good... others, evil. And so, began the war. A war that ravages our planet until it was consumed by death. And the cheese was lost to the far reaches of space. We step in across the galaxy hoping to find it and rebuild our home. Searching every star. Every world. And just when all hopes seem lost; message of a new discovery took us to an unknown planet called... Earth.

But we were already too late...

The Cheese? What the heck is this guy talking about? What is the Cheese?

The Cheese is everything that we want in life. What is this blog is about? The Cheese. My eternal and never ending pursuit of the cheese. So join me in my trails and tribulations of the Cheese of my life.. Through the happy times, The sad times, The funny times, The outrageous times, The embarrassing times, The times of love and times of Hope....
After all, that is what we are made of, Hopes and dreams... Dreams of sweet cheese...

So sit back, Think of the cheese of your life and what it means to you. Feel free to share your cheese with us. For we are all in this world of a trap together.
Maybe, just maybe, we can all get a little nibble of the cheese that drives us...
Welcome.